Monthly Archives: February 2013


i look forward to the next time i am given words of wisdom.
it is so humbling to really see what i look like from the 3rd person point of view. 
at first i felt discouraged, and a turmoil of feeling misunderstood, but then i realize that is a selfish way of thinking. 
and i dont want to feel so easily offended or discouraged when people tell me their opinions of me. and it looks like a negative comment. but now i see that it is God trying to break me down to really open my eyes even wider. 
because i’ve been there before in the past, easily burning with the firey passion to know God, then given advice from people, then easily discouraged and it feels like a huge embarrassment for myself, and i dont even wanna show myself in public anymore.

but now i see, that this is the only way i can see how to improve myself through Christ. 
I know the things I do in my actions, and say the things I say on facebook, i will get judged by many many people, i even have a little feeling that people are talking about me behind my back. But now i am starting to understand that i cannot be so affected or sensitive to those one-dimensional attributes. 
So to the people who actually take me aside or at least puts me on the spot with their words. I THANK YOU. Now I see that you are the ones who have the courage to really tell me that, and you are just a vessel of God to break my pride into a new spirit. 

I encourage you my brothers and sisters to keep giving me your advice, because now i really see that you are only trying to help and not to bash on me. It definitely puts me in my place, to really shake my arrogance and foolishness. For this walk really means to change perception. Help me help myself. 

I appreciate it really, means alot to me.

Thank you again.

My will aside

“My friends are ex-killers, my boys are drug dealers, if you dont approach my brothers with love how will they just feel it? I’ve done alot of drugs, still to this day man I struggle, I love to drink with my buddies and get into friendly tussles, I’m not the perfect man, but I’m a learning brother, use mistakes in my life and not burn another”



Recommended Books

Bill Johnson – When Heaven Invades Earth

Bill Farrell – Guys are Waffles, Girls are Spaghetti

Francis Chan – Crazy Love

C.S. Lewis – The Screwtape Letters:

C.S. Lewis – Chronicles of Narnia:

Tim Keller – The Reason of God

Gabe Lyons – The Next Christians

Billy Graham – Nearing Home

John Piper – Desiring God

David Platt – Radical

Richard Stearn – The Hole in our Gospel

Rick Warren – Driven Purpose Life

Mike Bickle – Growing in the Prophetic

Mike Bickle – Glory Within

Misty Edwards – What is the Point?

Loren Cunningham – Is that really you God?

Andy Byrd – Fire & Fragrance

Shelley Hundley – A Cry for Justice

David Crowder – Everybody wants to go to Heaven but nobody wants to die


Love is Suffering

the reason why most Christians cant show love fully is because they havent been persecuted enough through suffering. 

Eph 3:13 “I ask you, therefore, not to be discouraged because of my sufferings for you, which are your glory”

Your suffering is your glory. Use that to spread love & the word